***Text originally written on Sunday, September 24th, around 7pm, at O’Hare airport.
Today is the day I’ve been waiting for since I got my TAPIF acceptance; my plane touches down in Paris in less than twelve hours! Sitting here in the airport, it all feels very surreal. This moment is one that I have dreamed of since I stepped into my first high school French class over eight years ago. It fills my soul with so much joy to know that this crazy, beautiful, adventure of a lifetime is just hours away from conception. As excited as I am, I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t anxious. In fact, I’d go so far as to say I am terrified for this adventure to begin. This will be my first time abroad, navigating a new city, being immersed in this utterly beautiful language that I have the privilege of being able to speak (albeit quite imperfectly).
As I oscillate between feelings of immense joy and utter anxiousness, I have been reminded time and time again that I am covered in love and prayer by my friends, family, and most importantly, Christ. Over the course of applying, being waitlisted, and ultimately being accepted to this program, I was anxious as to whether or not I was making the right decision by deferring grad school and putting all my eggs in one basket. On the day my application was submitted and on each occasion, I got an e-mail regarding my placement with TAPIF here thereafter, I would hear the song “Thy Will” by Hillary Scott & The Scott Family on the radio. While the whole song is unbelievably moving, there is a part of it that goes as follows:
I know you see me,
I know you hear me, Lord,
Your plans are for me,
Goodness, you have in store.
Thy will be done.
As I was sitting in the car on the way to O’Hare, this very song came on the radio and I knew that while I don’t know what His plans are for me, He does, and they will be done according to His will. Though I am anxious and afraid, I am confident the Lord is watching over me, hearing my prayers, and He has not and will not lead me astray.
So all in all, praise God for this opportunity and this upcoming adventure. I have no doubt that there will be highs and lows, but it will all be in His glory.
That’s all I have time for, for now. I’ve got a plane to catch.
Until next time,