If you hadn’t noticed, my blog got a bit of a face lift this past week and I hope you all enjoy the new theme! It was time to renew my WordPress subscription and with that, I decided after 2 1/2 years of the same look, it was about time to change things up. I may play around with some new themes in the upcoming months to make sure this is the one I love, but for now, I hope you enjoy!
When I was planning out my blog posts for December, I fantasized that the week before graduation (!!), I would have a job secured doing something I am immensely passionate about with a good salary and an amazing work environment. Needless to say, here I am six days out and that is not at all the case.
Honestly, the job hunting process – this whole “adulting” thing – is more overwhelming and intimidating than I could have ever imagined. It’s hard to fantasize about the job you would love to have and then realize there are ten steps and multiple years between that place and where you’re currently at. It’s a tough pill to swallow to desperately be searching for the perfect opportunity that you’re not quite qualified for.
Right now, I am the opposite of “makin’ moves” career-wise, but I am learning to be okay with that.
A few weeks ago, I felt pray-fully compelled to make a really hard decision. As of the first week of December, I am not touching another job application until I return from France.
For the next six weeks, I won’t obsessively be checking job boards and LinkedIn. I’m letting go of all worry and fear about that status of my bank account come the new year. While it’s okay to dream (and dream big), I won’t let myself get stuck in the cycle of fantasizing, romanticizing, and feeling down about the job I don’t yet have.
For the next six weeks, I will still be “makin moves” – figuratively and literally. I’m graduating with my MSW. I’m traveling across the globe to spend three beautiful weeks with my best friend and his family in my favorite place in the world. Most importantly, I’m going to be present – not over-analyzing the past or over-thinking the future – and soak in the beauty that is this life I get to live.
I am giving myself full permission to live and laugh and breathe and rest. God’s got my past, present, and future written out just the way it should. If He can do all that, then I can trust in His good and perfect timing. In the meantime, I’ll be rejoicing in His promises (p.s. they are always ‘yes’ and ‘Amen’) and simply being.
Until next time,